Look back and avoid getting hit or ignore it and keep going forward?
Words could be statements of our declaration, yet effortless in comparison with the single most important thing about whatever statement we may have: doing it.
Honestly speaking, my past is important to me...
How about you guys? Do you prefer to leave your past behind or have it as a part of your life?
In need of opinions.
* ... for me, there's always a high probability of the enemy showing up from behind.
Got this from my sister's blog. Said it came from a friend's SMS.
"Just because my eyes have no tears doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry. And just because I come out strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong. Sometimes I choose to pretend I'm happy, so I don't have to explain myself to people who'll never understand. Smiling has always been easier than explaining why I'm sad."
No further comments.
... they're resonating.
Changing the mood i always had whenever i'm posting positively about the output of every performances my band(s), i won't be taking credit for everything [as one might say]. In fact, i'll state the complete opposite.
Well, so much for my last gig with Armada. I totally messed up with things. I relied too much with the "standing-in-toes" technique and went off blank. I played random notes uneven for the first song "Kiss Me Goodbye". That's the biggest error i've done so far. Anyway, until the end i tried that technique [except for Shissou which i memorized the tune but still missed] and so far i lacked some life with the final OPM song "If".
But before going to that OPM, i went back to the bass. My fingers got stiff and my stamina dropped, so you can hear errors within my basslines. So to sum my performance up, i sucked as usual.
I am, although i'm full of errors, proud with Armada. I'm just a little disappointed with myself because as for my last gig with them before i leave, i did my worst performance ever. And it was i who said i'll do my best. Just Jeremiah's statement: "losers whine about their best." Sounds like i got hit with his slug.
Speaking of Jeremiah, i'm quite disappointed with myself considering my self-declaration of being his "bestfriend"... and i couldn't do anything about his problems. I've also lacked time communicating with him. I feel not worthy being his friend right now. I wish i could find some way to make it up with him.
Anyway, after the gig... K2 summoned me via Edsel. It seemed like his post on my "blurtbox" about talking for old time's sake was afterwards. I think he read something within my blog and he wants to talk about it. And i was partly right, it was about my posts.
When i came, things were kind of shortlived. We talked about some things of the past, concerning what i have posted 4 months ago. He hasn't read it ever, perhaps just this month, that's why he wanted to clear things out. We finished that conversation with a conclusion: "it was an old post and things went better already."
BTW, FrolicNight had their live at Brickroad, Cainta with Kat's Prod. I didn't see them play [di ako umabot] but Edsel observed things for me, and as the guitarman he is now i know he did his job well to listen with their output. And i am proud with 3ple, i knew he had it in him. ^^,
Although my presence there pissed some people a bit, the one i really missed the most is 3ple. I still know what i have done, and it really feels awkward for me to face them knowing these things. The only thing i could do for those concerned is to shut up. `tis sad that i've let things go this way.
But the good thing is that, nothing violent happened. Diplomacy rules. ^^,
I guess things are over concerning that issue. I've closed the book on my side already.
Meanwhile... after about a year of pending invitation, my former "II-Dumagat" advisor Aouie Enrile finally added me up on her friends' list in Friendster. I was kind of looking forward to the day that i could post a testimonial to my most favorite advisor of all time, i just hope she approves my testimonial. =]
Election period's started. Who will you vote?
Me? I haven't even registered. ^^,
* No countdowns yet.
Just a small SMB Commercial teaser... oi Manny jok lang to a. ^^,
Wala akong magawa, honestly... pero nakita nyo na ba yung latest advertisement ng SMB featuring Pacquiao & Morales? Nung unang makita ko tong ad na ito a few weeks ago e natawa agad ako sa initial impression ko. Unang naisip ko: "What the hell... bakit ganun?" Kaya naisipan kong abangan sa TV Tuner ko ang ad at ni-record ko, then with the help of some screenshots e nagkaroon ako ng ganitong mga images sa baba nitong post ko. Pagpasensyahan nyo na kung di maganda pagkakaphotoshop ko sa main pic since this is intended for humor purposes only.
Walang ibig sabihing masama at hindi ito propaganda panlaban ke Manny dahil tatakbo sha sa eleksyon.
Anyway, magsimula na tayo.
Kapag narinig mo yun katagang "WALA KA'NG KATULAD, MANNY..." ano ang unang papasok sa isip mo?
Bibigyan ko kayo ng scenario. Read on.
Erik: ...
... with many things.
Ok, ok. I haven't posted for a while... Sendoh's external MODEM broke due to excessive takedowns [lagi nalalaglag ng matanda dito pag natatabig sa telepono]. SO i guess some people here misses me, especially my bestfriend Jeremaster who is constantly checking out my site if ever i did an update or not [tol manlibre ka naman jan]. Anyways sorry for the delay, but i guess i'm back to blurt out some of my "b!tchings and bullsh!ts" if that's what some of you want to call it.
I'll be going back to Abu Dhabi this March... so i'll be leaving RevEp and Armada behind for approximately 2 months and it WONT exceed. I'll be back for them. I'll just serve my time there and leave [parang statement ng preso amf]. My mom recommended me to come there for a vacation since i stopped school again because of my continuous failures [i failed BTW]. I guess i'll be needing that to wind up my mind and rehabilitate myself for two months. Smoking habits' getting worse. Anyway, i already have some plans when i get there. My mom will be coming here the first of March and hopefully we'll be leaving after two weeks.
But before i actually go there, theer are some things i would like to finish [but NOT end] with Armada and RevEp. My last live with Armada before i leave is next week @ Reia's event [ung Final Fantasy chuva] and i haven't prepared yet. I need to work on my fingers so i'd look good [even just for once] with my critic(s) [mahirap ng masabihan ng mayabang... ok na suplado wag lang mayabs].
While i know what i can do with my ears, i know that there are lots of people there much better than i am. It's a fact, it always was. I know i'm not so-a-great lead guitar player [nagsisimula pa lang ako] but please don't think we're giving credit to ourselves [especially myself]. It's not taking credit, it's just being "plain happy" with the output. The band don't usually talk about the output positively but not also depressingly, so i post on what i think with things over here... fairly and freely. At least give me someplace where i can express our accomplishments. I know you're good so let's... just stay with that, ok? ^^,
Leaving that behind, i'll be breaking my bonds with SuspenDead for once regarding the bass... just this once. I'll need to play the bass for one song [Paradise Kiss' "Lonely in Gorgeous"] since i'm concerned about my student Ian's current finger stamina. The basslines were repetitive, thus using your 2 fingers alternating presses in only a single lo-hi octave pattern... and from my experience it REALLY is tiring. And since she'll be one of those that'll sing the song, i'll take her place and play the bass. It's just one song then after that we'll be both back with our respective instruments.
But it's weird that some sensation fills me whenever i play the bass... no, seriously. I think i get more excited playing while on bass than the guitar. Maybe because it was my first band instrument, i dunno. But it looks like i enjoy it a lot.
So let me savour that feeling again. It's just a single song anyway.
Oh, well... i think SuspenDead won't care anyway since it's already dead. The former band decided to abandon the name and go up with a new one: FrolicNight. No biggie, but i think the meaning shows obviously: "Masayang Gabi...". I haven't seen them play yet, though i've met Vic unexpectedly at last. The name doesn't have that usual impact but you'll never know... be sure to watch out for them play.
But i'd be happier if they retained the name SuspenDead... it already had a punching name with some regular audience just after i left the band. Audiences were talking about the band during their last gig in Mayrics' España with Sendoh. Meaning it really had the potential to hit from underground. Too late for that to be realized just now, i guess.
